The stifling heat of the sun was so excruciating as we lined-up for our flag ceremony on one Monday morning. But what pains me more when I was reprimanded by the Father Rector. Though he never mentioned my name it was a shameful experience. I took it as a challenge and a learning experience. What would be my profit if I take it negatively? Be stuck-up and entertain grudges? No! Drooping situations and clumsy actions can be modified by the person himself. Hence, I had the firm resolve to work it out and transform it to a better. I follow the process that whatever is ideal starts from a practical. So I made an ideal vision and reach it through practical ways. How? I had a firm resolve that I will do my best to become a good example to my co-seminarians. I strive for excellence in every aspect of my formation. I open myself to a wider horizon that whatever would happen it is always for a better of my personality, for I know it is God who is working in me. After that, little by little, put an action to my plan, seek the help of others and asked what would be the best thing to do on a particular situation, joined them in their activity and sharing them what I have.
Then days passed by, our community was crumpled by different cultures emerging. We’ve learned the lesson in a hard way. I said it was time for me to act. It would be better for me to give what I have and not just to become a mere passive person. I volunteered myself for a responsibility left with some fear. Retreat days were over. I received an additional responsibility. Now, I have more. Responsibility which I did not imagine that would be given to me at all since I am a new member of the community. Why me? This nagging question lingered in me. Then I realized, I made a difference.
I could not forget that Monday morning which leads me to become more productive. From a mere follower of the rules and regulations, those experiences elevate me to become a servant-leader. Now I can offer myself to the community leading them for the best. I know God has always a better plan for me so I always open myself to his will and to any possibilities. Letting a wider horizon to be seen as I go along the process of maturity. I know there are many things to be still develop in me, I am too far to be said as a model seminarian. Yet I know that something has changed in me with the way I live my life here in seminary. I remember one song that I like most. It goes like this, “because of you my life has change, because of you I feel no shame”. Indeed we need people to help us grow, for we let them see things which ourselves can not see.
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